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so yea i'm taking a break from my day to update and because when i got home i turned on the tv and i stumbled upon this Harry Potter documentary on the movies and whatnot on A&E. It's pretty sweet and i got excited and have been watching it ever since so i can't just leave now. anyways though.
things have been exceptionally good.
today i took my dad lunch and i almost got in a car accident. some lady in a ford explorer almost hit me. she was turning left when she was suppose to yield to oncoming traffic. luckily my breaks saved me and i was able to go around her halfway turn. i didn't honk or anything but yea i was pretty relieved to not have gotten hit.
i still have to go to meijers and some other places. i also need to get gas in my car and fill up a tire. pretty exciting, i know.
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i think i've decided that i don't really like alfonso cuaron.
i finally finished reading smack. finally. i didn't think it would take this long to finish a book about heroin junkies. but alas it did.
i started another book and my summer reading is under way.
i'm such a dork.
it looks like it might rain....again! crimal sakes (becca) it's june and it should be sunny everyday all day long.
i want to go to chicago again really soon.
last night was fun. i like tiscornia much better than silver beach. private beaches are just better.
we went to find jake the puppy but of course he wasn't there so we left another angry and threatening note to my teacher. i bet he's so big now. we need to go see him soon guys!
okay the Harry Potter special is over now so i'm off to go spend the rest of my day getting things done.
byebye!
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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
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so yes it's summer finally and it felt like it today. so hot, but yet so nice.
i'm most definitely enjoying not being in school right now.
i really do not use my livejournal very much. it just seems like a big hassle every time i should update or i don't know. i used to update often, but now i just don't. i kind of like updating sporadically but yea i feel like i'm only making more work for myself when it does come to finally updating this thing. oh well hopefully my entries won't be as boring as the ones that used to come and go like every other day.
so far my summer has been going pretty well. i'll just make a list because lists are fun and they seem like i include a lot more so:
things in beth's life that have occurred. (so far this summer):
-getting pulled over by the cops for the first time ever and then getting pulled over again two nights later. both for speeding. the outcome: negative in the terms of not getting a ticket both times. i REALLY need to work on my speeding...really the way i see it, it was bound to happen to me one day....i speed majorly. must stop soon.
-seeing harry potter 3 (and soon to be twice after tomorrow)
-washing my car inside and out
-having a lot of fun with dominic
-talking and being with my greatest friends
-being entertained by my drunken friends (some of whom had gotten drunk for the very first time) highly entertaining and highly annoying after some time
-graduation parties
-crazy mosquito bites
-being crazily happy that i live by a very grande lago (large lake for you non spanish speaking people)
-being dissed and dismissed by linda and austin even though it's really linda's fault...haha
-feeling sad and scared and worried and annoyed but then feeling recovered by happiness and love and yea it's grand
-soccer end of the season shindig
-miniature golfing...i scored a 47......solid
-i tried ddr for the very first time and sucked majorly...that's such a hard game!
-summer! ahh just the sound of it is so great
in other news:
-my birthday is in one month and 3 days
-the fourth of july is in less than a month
-i'll be in grand rapids all this weekend for my brother's wedding
-i finally decided today that i will replace yearbook class with classic lit, i'm pleased with my decision, i just hope that i can change my schedule
-yea my friends are all so great...i love them
well that's really all i can say for right now.
i/m sure i'll remember something later and forget to add it next time because i will have forgotten it by then and it won't matter
oh wait i have another list: books i want to read this summer (*and one i have to read for class):
-hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
-the da vinci code
-1984*
-more vonnegut
-catalyst
-there are more im sure
i'm finished now.
this is fact not fiction for the first time in years
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tonight is how it should be every night.
tonight actually made me realize that i will miss my class and most of everybody in it when we graduate exactly a year from now.
tonight made me appreciate the beach, the sunset, friends, good music, the guys in my grade, coffee, and hanging out
tonight made me want summer even more than i already want it.
tonight was perfect.
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Thursday, April 1st, 2004
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so i guess i haven't updated in what.... like 3 days? or something like that. anyways my journal is now the way i want it and i like it. thanks to becca for the help. i'm very lj retarded.
sooo... school is blah as always. spring break is in 3 weeks.
college visits: need to be planned.
linda and dan going to prom is cool. because linda is great! and dan's not bad either i guess.
the weather today was so nice! i love it but i'll love it even more if it sticks around.
i saw this in somebody's away message and i liked it:
"Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once i had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad."
it's kind of sad when you think about it, but tis life i guess.
it's nice when you learn things about people and realize for the things they say and believe in, you like them even more.
what's interesting is when you and another person agree on the same things. it's actually really cool. it makes me think "wow, im not the only one who thinks this."
it makes me kind of laugh and smile at the same time. mainly because not many people know what this is about. :O)
i could go on forever thinking of all the reasons i like you and me together but that would take too long and you'd never fully know how much of everything you are to me.
birthday update (because i don't have some cool lochjournal countdown and because it's more fun to do this): cara's: 5 days
dominic's: 7 days
work was well work. what do you expect? sonya's job reminds of something straight out of officespace. she was telling me and rachel all about the different types of models of staplers and whatnot. intriguing yes, informative meh not so much.
we are now to the H's at work! go us!
okay. bye.
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my journal looks like crap. still working on that.
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Thursday, March 4th, 2004
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im tired.
i feel despondent from everyone.
i feel somewhat sad yet im fighting not to at all.
people confuse me.
people get to me and they shouldn't.
the oc was was reallly good yesterday. it almost made me cry. i love anna!
and of course it's going off for 3 weeks.....grrrr.
it's interesting reading peple's lj's and wondering if it's about you. and hoping that it's not and wondering why if it is.
i hate homework.
i hate teachers that screw me over from a perfect 4.0 but my dad pointed something out to me today so i have to ask my guidance counselor about it.
school bites. i neeed spring break.....what i need is a change.
i'm hungry.
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today was: short, not fun, busy, boring, fun and happy.
happy because i got an A on my spanish exam.
short because it felt like we didn't do anything in my classes.
fun because we got to watch west wide story in spanish class.
boring because we didn't do much hard/challenging work.
busy because i went to school and work afterwards and that just sucked.
not fun because we're now filing all the charts from both practices and there are so many. it will take ages to finish. ho hum at least i'm getting paid a nice amount for feeling like i'm not doing much or keep messing up what i am doing.
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in other news:
dom's birthday is in 14 days
cara's birthday is in 12
some people make me sick. and irritate the hell out of me. it sounds mean i know, but it's true and well yea, i'm glad i'm not the only one that thinks this.
life is good and well even if i'm not going anywhere for spring break i'll still have fun. i'm looking forward to going on some college visits. even though i'm pretty sure i know where i want to go. if not depaul, somewhere in chicago for sure. ahhh i heart that city.
my economics teacher is so hilarious. it's so nice to have him now for this trimester rather than my comparative politics teacher. i felt bad for the lady because she got swindled into just being a sub to being a full time teacher. that must really bite monkies.
some people are really moody. and mean. and i don't like that. but whatever. it's their deal, not mine.
this entry might behold some very bitchy attitudes/comments but ya well i'm actually in rather good spirits it's just sometimes i feel like i need to express how i feel. and well this is my lj, so this is where i'm going to do it.
well off to go do some homework.
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Sunday, February 29th, 2004
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sooo.....
this weekend was........
awesome, fantastically fun and very very busy!
exams are over and i couldn't be happier. ooh wait yes i could, if we didn't have school tomorrow or the day after that, i'd be very happy too. meh school isn't that bad i guess....i'm just getting spring fever like whoa.
speaking of which........
the weather is so incredibly nice out!
so tonight after driving my dad's car....i really like sunroofs or moonroofs as some people call them. too bad fiti sentra doesn't have one. oh well the next nice car i get will for sure.
friday i had a half day and then hung out with dominic and went up to kzoo to try and go thrifting but we only went to one (nuway) and didn't really see anything that great besides this reall soft velour pink couch that you pratically sink into when you sit down. we walked around downtown, tried to go into the radisson but only to get kicked out because of a "no luring policy" haha. we saw a gay rights protest and had dinner at qdoba. my first qdoba experience and i must say that taco bell is just as good and wayyy cheaper.
saturday i had drama practice...kinda boring....just sat there for most of the time....went to work.........came home and cleaned house...had people over........had fun....lots of food and laughed a whole lot.
sunday.....woke up....soccer practice.......work........cleaned downstairs after people trashed it jk you guys didn't at all.......did some laundry.......was wayy tired and still am actually.....ate dinner.....talked to dominic...uhhh yea that's all i can remember.
i had a very interesting and fulfilling conversation this weekend with somebody who means a whole lot to me. all this talk about college and what not. i don't know. sometimes it's a tough situation and it's hard and sometimes people can't do it..they can't make it last..they drift apart or they get caught up in their new lives. well it's only natural to think and feel this way...to feel apprehensive and unsure and just kinda weird about the whole thing. but then i thought about it and we talked about it and it's so much more than that. it's more than going away to college and not seeing each other everyday or even every week. i know dominic and i can do this..we do it all the time. we've gone a long time without seeing each other and ya it sucks but it's just something you learn to accept. some couples can manage and deal with this while others cannot. it's not like we're going to be going from seeing each other everyday to hardly seeing each other ever, because as bad as it sounds, that's normal for us. if a few months is the only thing in our relationship that changes then i don't think it matters. i think i'll be fine. infact i'm pretty positive i'll be fine. you can't worry about what might happen, you have to trust and you have to know the person because even though they're going away or changing their lives, you realize that you're infact, part of their life. so maybe it is changing, it's still there. it's hard and really i don't know where this is coming from, but i see people and know people that had relationships (good ones) and for one reason or another it lasted or it didn't last. i guess the whole college factor is a bullshit excuse to break up with somebody you love. yes it can depend on such factors as distance and so on but i mean if you really care and love a person than that should be enough to stay together. for me, it would be so hard to drift away from dominic. he's such a big part of my life. a person can't just drift away from somebody like that. if they do, then i would question it for possibly other reasons. some people aren't made for each other but they have to work at it. i don't know. it's stupid and it's sounds stupid and yea it won't be better for me or anything but i realize and this is what happens when you're in somewhat of a long-distance relationship, (even though 30 minutes isn't that long) but yea you learn to mature more about your relationships. sure maybe i won't get to see him as much as i'd like to but that's not a changing thing. that's how it is now. ya maybe we won't get to sleep over together but all of that doesn't matter when i know that he still cares and i still care. i never want to be in a relationship where one person cares or loves more than the other. that would kill more than anything. ya so i think i'll stop talking about this because it's just kinda blah i guess. it's really for my own knowledge. it's just people ask if we're going to break up as if august will be the deciding moment of truth or not for the future of beth and dominic. that's so lame. i don't know. and besides in a year and some it'll be great and it'll be so fun and 8 or 9 months is worth all of that. so yea. i'm fine with things i guess. at least my boyfriend isn't moving away....no matter how much money they spend on each other or how they've cut all their friends out of their lives, that would be horrible. i can't even fathom the feelings that they're going through. and who am i to judge their relationship even if it is kinda intense. it still is bad and i feel bad for the both of them. they both don't deserve this, ya i just totally switched what i was talking about and most of you know what i'm talking about.
sometimes i feel like i can't be truly me when i'm around certain people. it's like if i say what's really on my mind, they'll get offended or think i'm mean but it's just really how i am. i don't know. i've realized some things about people and ya i don't like it but that's how life is i guess..............blah.......
i'm off to bed. this entry kinda blew but oh well oh by the way....merry roberts i need to talk to you about something 'secretive'. hehehe. i love being sneaky!
goodnight.
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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
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only 2 more exams to go
i can't wait till it's all over tomorrow.
tomorrow. i hope it's fun.
didn't do that great on my chem exam and usually i'm pretty good at chemistry oh well it won't be that bad...really it's not a bad grade but to me, it's bad.
oh my oh my the oc!!!! did everybody that's cool watch it? what did you think? hmmm ryan and theresa kissing.....crazy stuff! but marissa needs to learn she just can't have him back without a fight.... anna leaves nooo! i love anna....and i have to stop talking about this as if they were real people who were my friends....
chinese food rocks my socks. mmmmmmm.
how do socks rock anyways? i mean really?
i can't wait till our bathroom is finished. hopefully it'll look nice. my parents now live at lowes and i am parentless.
time to go to the bank and to work.
day 2 of being chocolate free.
hasta. speaking of which....the spanish exam is going to kick my ass.
beautiful day=happy mood.
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
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since when did the library stop being the quiet, silent oasis i used to know and love?
since little kids were allowed in them!
i go to the library in dire need of some quiet time to study and re-teach myself my math only to find little kids that don't know how to keep their traps shut. sorry...insensitive i might sound right now, but you'd be irritated too if you're trying to learn the end behavior of some function with subscripit n and synthetic and prostetic division and blah blah blah blah blah.
although after i left i realized i am really going to love college especially if the libraries are like the ones at uofc.
"Michigan playing Michigan State and a keg down the hall what can be better?"
-this one kid's away message......wow.....that's sooo sad.
why some kids opt to stay home and not pursue anything after high school. they don't want to turn into that.
haha. im in another one of those moods tonight.
ya so about wanting more and all of that bs. i don't know what im talking about sometimes. well a lot of the times haha but ya. i love the way dominic and i are. we're great and perfect and awesome together and i wouldn't want it any other way. he's the world to me and that sounds so cheesy and lame and so many other emo/wussy adjectives but ya it's all true. and i just thought i should say that. i really don't want to be like some of the couples i see. it just makes me happy we're not like that. i don't know if i could do it. different things for different beings. haha. i made that one up.
whoa. just realized the level of my dorkiness and it skyrocketed.
welp off to go study math again in the quiet fortresses of my room.
sprrrrrrinnnnnnng brrreeeakkkk!
i need you.
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
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sometimes i just get so sick of being unconventional, sometimes i want more. but ya i don't know what i'm saying. i bet people look at me and are like wtf? beth you are not unconventional, you are every that is conventional but really i'm not when it comes to relationships and such. i don't want to fall into the cliche relationship that some couples have, i don't like it. but sometimes i just want to think of a song and be able to think of you or have something to remind me of you i don't know, i'm being stupid.
i'm in a mood.
i'm giving up chocolate. i was going to give up meat but then i realized i love chicken too much, so out with that idea.
i couldn't even imagine giving up drinking tea. i love that too much. i drink at least one cup a day, i think i'm addicted. that's what i get for having a grandma from england. i drank it from my bottle when i was little instead of milk.
one exam over with...only 5 more to go.
sometimes i just get so sick of living and want something more.
but then i see what i haev and i'm like oh it's not so bad.
everytime i listen to a certain group of guys in my class i just want to slam my head against a wall and bang it repeatedly. they make me sick to my stomach with their endless contradictions. i can't take it anymore!
sometimes i go severely crazy at lmc. but yet, my friends are the only thing worth while in it and that's what makes it bearable. thanks guys.
i'm off to bed.
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Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
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i have exams coming up this week. it's going to suck major.
i hate math. it's hard and i don't understand it. it's a hopeless case. my teacher is a dumbass.
i'm eating pineapple right now.
i rediscovered my love for raspberry iced tea. hence my livejournal name. well that's where the rasbry part came from.
i really wanted to listen to some jackson 5 today. but i don't have any. if anybody does have some, let me know. i'd like to listen to michael before his pre-i-molest-little-boys stage.
i realized that i really don't care too much for breakfast food. sure french toast, pancakes once in awhile but really not so much.
surprises are fun.
dominic smells like laundry. laundry that's clean and fresh of course. i like it.
i really really really heart deathcab.
new oc this week. so very shocking of last week's events. man when i think of it i can't possibly fathom why people would think it's lame. it's so freaking good! sure it's realistic to an extent that 27 year olds are playing high school juniors and they drive range rovers and live in mansions but beyond that it's just like you and me. everyday kind of people. i love it.
politics exam tomorrow. should be easy.
i had some good times with my dad today. sometimes i don't think i appreciate him enough, i should more.
this weekend was really fun. different than most i think. but i don't know why. hmmm.
i saw 50 first dates last night with dominic. it was kinda sad. the ending well i'm still unsure about. it lacked the closure i wanted but then i thought about it and that was really the only way they could have ended it. i mean to make everybody happy anyways. ya but it was definitely sad.
i don't want to go to school tomorrow. that phrase is becoming very reoccurring every sunday night.
i really worry about the person who made up livejournal. i fear for him. i worry for his welfare and well-being. i really do.
i'm thinking about taking a livejournal leave for a bit of time. it's distracting and kind of lame.
but then so am i so it fits i guess.
i'm glad people like my new haircut. even if they didn't, i wouldn't care but it's always nice when people around you like it as well.
okay. enough of this. study to time.
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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i had an awesome day!
i got my haircut and i love it!
little notes from my boyfriend left on my car was a great surprise to my already good day.
i had a fuji apple for lunch and it was the shit yo.
i'm sooo not ghetto even if i wanted to be. which i do yo!
life is grand
except for my homework that i have to do.
i bought shin guards today for soccer.
i'm excited for indian food!
i miss summer. it's suppose to be 46 degrees out tomorrow! everybody get yours shorts and flip flops out!
have a great thursday. friends is on tonight. only a few more episodes left.
that's it for today journal.
talk to you soon.
B (the girl version) (not m-cat's B) durrr.
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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
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dear journal,
I regretfully apologize to you for the sincere lameness that you possess. I'm sorry I couldn't make you cooler. I'm sorry I don't know ions and ions about the computer and livejournal to make you look or even remotely appear cool. please forgive me. I will continue writing in you for as long as I can but I must admit I think my entries can only take a turn for the complete worse. I'm sorry I neglect you at times but lately I've been pretty good about updating, even if they are only worthless pieces of crap. oh journal you deserve so much better.
regretfully yours,
beth
haha so i guess this party in sh that this kid you might have heard of him (T.M.) was throwing got busted and now a very good majority of the guys in my class all got caught and received a nice MIP. some of my friends were even going to go...I guess it turned out for the best. not that hanging out with the guys in my class is a guaranteed bundle of fun anyways.
when people use the word blech it reminds me of the word bleach. hmm how do you pronounce blech? i'm so behind the it's cool to make up words and use em type thing...wait actually no i'm not i use and make up words everyday.
thanks to m-cat's journal i now long for summer in the worst way. damnit m-cat!
and to let people know that valentine's day is not a day to buy your loved one their spring wardrobe. unlike sean in my class did for his girlfriend and vice versa. a couple of sweaters and polos here and a few pairs of shorts while you're at it. man if i was in that kind of relationship, i'd be broke in about a week.
man it's robbery working at my mom's office. well the x-ray job wasn't but now it is. i sit and look through these files looking for people that have been born in 1985-present day. we pile the ones that are older than that back in the boxes. this one guy was born in 1869. i couldn't believe it. that's so old. it's hard, taxing work but hey i mean if a monkey could do it for free, then we'll pay a human to do it for 8 dollars an hour.
and so begins the time where every, well almost every Michigander goes crazy for spring and longs for warm weather. i've fallen hard to that syndrome, very hard.
sometimes you find things out about people and it shocks the hell out of you.
oh man those talking dolls.......what are they called i forget. well they scare the crap outta me! i mean any doll can do that to me but these kinds of dolls....hmm i think it starts with a V maybe? ventriloquist that's it! those things are so scary! what a stupid way to waste wood.
I hope everybody has a nice evening.
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Monday, February 16th, 2004
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i worked a lot today and got a nice workout filing more x-rays! i am now finished with the 2002 ones! so for the last 45 minutes today i got paid $8 bucks an hour for feeding paper into a paper shredder.
soccer was fun! not really that painful at all. it almost felt dare i say good to sweat a little? ya it did.
i hope lmc isn't as annoying as it can be at times this week. only 4 days. yipee.
i get my hair cut thursday. i'm very excited! i'm going to shave my head and have "b-dog" shaved in. it's gonna be awesome. i can't wait!
hmm. i wanna talk to you soon.
some people are really bitchy and for no reason. why is that.
some people spaz out way too often. spaz is a funny word.
hmmm...i hear something? yea that's it! the sound of beth's journal disintegrating into an oblivion of utter pathetic-ness and loseryness.
so with that. i'm out.
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Sunday, February 15th, 2004
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wow a whole week without updating. it's been nice. ahh i'm very happy with myself....actually i'm not purposely trying to not update it's just that i haven't had any time and not that much to say really so i don't update. it's a good thing i think for me.....avoiding long, pointless entries at all costs. haha. riiight. what will this entry be? yea i thought so too.
i hope everybody's valentine's day was good and everything they thought it would be and more.
i'm not going to go on and on about what i think of valentines day.....i like to refer to it as vd-day but that kinda grosses people out so i'll stop. actually i'm only kidding about that. but ya it's funny. it is...you know it.
i've had a great couple of days. it's been awesome and fun and fantastic and wonderful and amazing and painful and new and challenging and busy and fast and blah and annoying and irritating and glorious (haha old school) and yea every other adjective i could possibly think of to describe this week.
on friday i tried snowboarding for the first time. thank you merry roberts for lending me your board!! i owe you one! i hope i didn't damage it too much but they say that the more scratches a board has, the better the snowboarder is. so go merry you rock! anyways ya, so snowboarding is really hard and looks way easier than it actually is, but i had a lot of fun and i liked the challenge of it. i fell a lot and almost every part of my body hurts but i definitely want to do it again! haha. maybe i should take a real lesson, that could help me a lot i bet. the hardest part was stopping. other than that, it was definitely a good time spent with friends. it was fun having conversations on the bunny hill and just laying on the snow. it was so nice out! cold but very sunny. ahhh splendid times.
man i wonder about my vocabulary sometimes. the other night when i was with dominic i was cussing up a storm and now i'm like oh "splendid" "glorious" haha. well really the glorious is from old school which i really need to watch sometime soon because that movie is really funny to me.
hmmm tonight was very fun. thank you dominic. you're the best. i couldn't be happier spending today or any other day for that matter with anybody else. i love you.
7 is my favorite number.
i say 'soda' and 'onvelope' instead of envelope. i like my way better.
soccer conditioning is gonna kill tomorrow. i hope my achiness goes away soon.
i'm not really that tired.
i slept for almost 12 hours last night/this morning.
i'm now getting paid $8 an hour at my mom's office. filing loads of x-rays and transporting them up and down stairs is quite the workout. i'm so happy to be getting more than minium wage!
we have no school monday...it's about damn time....lmc had almost a full week and it was starting to get scary.
i say i hate school all of the time and yet i want to commit to like 7 years of it after high school. but i think sometimes i just get too much lmc. seriously a person could go crazy there. haha. i enjoy it sometimes but ya once in awhile you just have enough of it. and i've had my fair share lately.
dominic and i decided that mary-kate and ashley are like the hottest broads ever.....okay well maybe i decided that they're the hottest ever but dom agreed.
well this was yet again a pretty pointless update but that's okay. sometimes i ponder why i have one of these livejournals.
everybody have a good night and remember if you feel like getting it on with your loved one or anybody for that matter.....keep it safe, you don't want the gift that keeps on giving.
see ya
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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
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okay so lj sucks and i minimized the window and my entry was gone! and i had a lot too! man oh man but since i had a ton of mountain dew tonight and im not tired i'll retype it. hopefully i can remember most of what i said. so ya. hmmm.
i want everybody i care about and love to be happy. i want their lives to be great and fulfilling. i want my friends to see that they're amazing and awesome the way they are. i wish we could stop worrying about grades and things of that nature. it's stupid but yet for me it's impossible to not not care about things like that. im such a massive control freak. i hate it about me sometimes but i try to be pretty laid back as well. it's weird how it all works out but somehow oddly enough, it does. i just wish i could have answers as to why life works out the way it does.
to my friends- i love you and care about you so much. to my new friends- i;m so lucky to have met you guys! you're all so awesome and different and it's pretty damn cool! to my old friends- i never ever want to forget, i don't think i ever could.
after seeing merry's comment to my last entry i just would like to say that i say some not so well thought out things sometimes. i know i do. it's a flaw of mine but i'm working on it haha. i just get so passionate about stupid things and ya. whatever. thanks merry for helping me see that. i appreciate it alot. and for anybody in future reference, you can tell me when i sound dumb or say something not so thought out and i can see and understand what i did or said that was wrong. i can admit when im wrong. that's a good thing. some people can handle that. some cannot. most can though and it makes it a whole lot easier to work with those kind of people.
in relation to merry's entry about first impressions. hmm well first impressions in my opinion, are very scary for me. they're scary and nerve-wracking to me. i love meeting new people but im always so scared of whether or not they liked me or not. which in a sense is funny, because i always had this "i don't care what other people think of me" kind of attitude. but i just hope they see a nice girl and not somebody who is rude and stuck up and mean. i would hate that because that is most definitely not me. so i hope none of you see that in me. but yes first impressions can be so crazy and how they work out and what not. you can never guess the people you'll be such great friends with. or the people you miss hanging out with. sometimes you can and it all works out and it's cool when that happens but surprises are also very fun.
happy birfday ramsey! the big 1-9! whooooo!
i hope people don't always take what i say in lj to heart, usually i mean a lot of it but sometimes im not always thinking straight and i say stupid things, not always fully thought through. but i appreciate any help in making me see different sides to things. im very open to new ideas. one day we should have a debate! i love debates! haha im such a loser. it's a weakness i guess. i think merry's comment just got to me and i felt pretty awful because that wasn't what i meant at all but i can totally see where it sounded kinda bad. but ya anyways. hmm enough of that for tonight.
speaking of tonight. tonight was great fun. dominic and i went to eat at the mark since i had a craving for mexican food. it was muy bueno! after dinner, we were going to go bowling but the leagues were playing until like 9:30 and it was kind of a long way off so we were going to go iceskating instead but it was kind of pricey and we didn't really want to go for that long so we just ended up going to best buy and looking at a whole bunch of neat stuff! man the things i could buy if i had endless amounts of money. we watched a movie called battle royale, it was kind of disturbing but an overall good movie. im glad i watched it.
so ya it's official. v-day definitely sucks. im going to start calling it vd-day. that's how much it sucks. lol. meh im kidding. it's such a commercial holiday. now the fourth of july.......now that's a holiday. i mean cmon the birthday of the day our country became independent. it's great! fireworks, cookouts, summer, one week before my birthday, such great wonderful things.
i miss summer. i miss everything about it.
so is anybody doing anything cool for their spring break? i am! pfft. kind of not really. it looks like it'll be college visits for me but that's aok because im kind of looking forward to it. im a dork like that though so things like that interest me.
so far this is my list of possible and some for sure prospects for college visits:
DePaul
University of Chicago
Loyola
Northwestern
Michigan
ya that's the list thus far but it couldn possibly be more or less of those.
i didn't know you wanted to be a lawyer dan?!?! what kind of lawyer do you want to be?
im trying out for the spring musical.
im trying soccer this spring.
hmm we're redoing our bathroom and some other parts of our house. it sucks because i have no input since i won't be here next year since i'll be at college. oh well, im sure whatever my parents decide will look okay. im crossing my fingers anyways...
im hungry.
but i think im going to go to bed now. there are alot of birthdays in february. a lot more than i realized.
catch ya on the flipside livejournal.
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Thursday, February 5th, 2004
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whenever i think of shakespeare's Macbeth, i think that it was some sandwich McDonalds made up for me. :O). i mean cmon why not. i like the thought of it....specialize your sandwich....macbecca..macsonya, macangela....ya im getting a bit too carried away.
so let's see! this week went by super duper fast which is awesome because soon enough it will be the beloved weekend! i can't wait! not that i have any big, definite plans yet i just like the opportunity to make some. :O).
so let's!
friends was especailly funny tonight.
so the other day in drama class, a few of us got to talking about school and somebody mentioned this question of if we think that the tuition to lmc is worth the education we receive. and my answer to that would be sadly no. we don't receive the quality of education you would expect after paying thousands of dollars a year. i mean ya myabe it's not THAT much for a private school, but it's still money period. versus going to a public school. but ya it sucks and it's really no surprise sj and other big schools would have more choices for classes that you can take. they have way more money and money from the state to fund that kinda shit. of course bigger schools have better lunches and all of that as well. and they say money doesn't buy happiness. haha. jk. actually no, lmc isn't really all that bad, i mean yes it definitely has it's downs but with that comes it's ups and those are definitely the people. when we were talking about it during drama, i said i could never meet the kind of people and establish the kinds of friendships that i have if i went to a public school now. i'm not saying that kids that go to a public school, don't make any real friends, because im sure they do but if you've been going there a long time and whatnot it makes it easier to develop those kinds of friendships. sure, i'd have more choices and whatnot but that's what college is for. and yes i still do have choices at lmc so it's not all that bad. but this week, i definitely did have a little too much lmc. sometimes it's very bad.
like i said this morning while the guys were attempting to play the keyboard in drama class even though they don't know any notes or anything they just merely continue to play to annoy people and maybe one day fulfill their life long dream of becoming a "rockstar" i was saying how sometimes it's like school is just a four sided box and sometimes you just have enough and want to throw yourself up against one of those walls. haha. okay and after i said that andrea was like wow you're really positive. but i didn't mean it like some suicidal emotionally lost teenager.....i just meant that sometimes a person can have too much. it's just their last circuit. or perhaps their circuit is just really short....either way though i like school, definitely for the people (my friends mostly) and well ya. im glad i don't go to school with 200 some kids and only know maybe a rough 3% of them. i think i would hate that. i'd feel like i was missing out on getting to know somebody sooo entirely cool and fun. ya that would suck.
and somehow that brings me to my next topic of discussion....my friends are leaving! we all will! oh sigh! it's so sad and exciting and crazy at the same time. but one thing for sure is that i'm so happy that everybody is doing something different. some of my friends will be in new york, california, chicago, kalamazoo, lansing, and who knows where else. i'm so glad we're not all going tthe same college. that would really really not be good. i'm glad that we're all different and some of us want different things. i think it will make me appreciate them so much more than i already do now. it's scary and exciting at the same time and it will be fun to come back and visit everybody and go visit them wherever they end up. i know some of us will end up at the same college which is okay since really i would like knowing that somebody i knew went to the same college as me just for comfort or maybe not even that specifically or whatever buti'm excited for it all (minus actually getting in to college). that's a different story. haha.
ya so life is going well and i'm happy with most things in it. i went skiing yesterday and it was pretty fun. it had been a while and hopefully i'll be able to go again sometime soon. i wanna try snowboarding. a tad bit scared but not really....i like trying most new things.
things i would like to do before i die
go skydiving
go to europe
go to australia
fly a plane
become fluent in a couple different languages
do something worthwhile with my life
make a difference somehow in something or somebody's life
learn how to surf
invent something!
become a successful lawyer
go parasailing
learn how to sail
go scubadiving
be happy, most importantly and have fun with everything
i'm sure i could think of more things i would want to do, but i wouldn't want to make this one endless entry. although im very capable of doing that......i tend to go on and on and on and on.............
hmmm yea. so that's that. tomorrow is friday....i can hardly wait.
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